Thursday, August 7, 2014
Hello, World!
It's been years since the last time I post stuff here. I would like to say thank you for those who come often to this blog although they know that they wouldn't find anything new from me. If there any of you reading this waiting for my post, here is good news for you, guys. I moved on towards Tumblr! You guys can see my works for years over here or you guys can mail me if you have something up in your mind related to the works. Please do check my new home out. Guess I won't post anything in this 'old book' anymore.
Thank you :) :*
Best regards,
Talita Sagitarani
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Never Sung By Anyone But My Heartbeats
I love to sing your name harmony.
The way you talk, minoring my sadness
The way you laugh, majoring my universe.
Your laughter, I know it as my Do
Our fighter will always be my Re
Your destiny, can be spoken as Mi
Our heartbeat, will be the perfect Fa
Sol is every tears that fall
It's La, the sugarsweet you ever did
Call it Si, your presence, be here for me like you used to be.
From A to G,
Do till Si,
You're my perfect melody.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Aku, Jarak dan Kamu
Menggelinding sempurna mengikuti arah tujuan,
Berusaha mengejar roda depan tapi tak mampu,
Seperti mata kiri pada mata kanan,
Melihat warna, pesona, semesta yang persis sama,
Namun tak pernah memandang satu sama lain.
Itu rindu.
Seperti kutub utara dan kutub selatan,
Bersama menyeimbangkan gerak bumi,
Terus berputar tapi tidak akan pernah sekalipun menyatu.
Seperti dua garis sejajar,
Hanya tahu bahwa mereka begitu dekat,
Tapi sepanjang apapun garisnya, tidak akan pernah saling sentuh.
Itu rindu.
Seperti telingaku pada setiap frasa yang kamu rapalkan,
Seperti instingku pada pancaran aura kamu,
Seperti jantungku yang bereaksi lebih pada siluetmu,
Seperti hatiku yang selalu jatuh pada tiap detik kehadiranmu.
Juga seperti diri aku pada diri kamu.
Mestinya kamu tahu yang aku rasa bisa jadi lebih dari perasaan garis sejajar,
Lebih dari hasrat pengejaran sia-sia roda belakang pada roda depan,
Lebih melampaui harapan kosong kedua mata.
Mestinya kamu paham tanpa aku perlu menjelaskan,
Bahwa setiap ketidakhadiranmu menghadirkan sesak,
Mestinya kamu sadar tanpa aku perlu menyatakan,
Selalu ada rindu mendesak.
Saturday, January 1, 2011
2010
This whole year was about giving, taking, learning, and loving.
January
I was trapped into some problems. Most with friends, bestie, even myself. I wanna gave up, but something inside forbade me. Then I fixed them one by one, and I did. I mean WE did. My friends taught me that give up isn't the best way. They told me that I can do better. They recalled me that honesty is everything. It's not important to be another, lying even for goodness. Nobody wants to be lied. They so told me that everyone wants to be appreciated. This life isn't just about me. So I tried to make a new better life, together with them.
February
I knew somebody and we made promises to keep each other. I learnt to release my past and loving somebody else. It seemed beautiful at the first. But then everything was changed. There's some trouble despite of it. I was accused as friendship destroyer. I tried to defend, but they keep offended me. But I made it as a notice. That I should keep whom I had then, and not to hurt him like I hurt his friend. This month, I learnt not to accuse somebody else if I didn't know what really happened, like they did. It's better to be neutral. Everyone had their mistakes, but not all of them realized their faults.
March
Everything went normally among me and my friends. We did the life well. We did it as a normal high-schoolers. We cheated at tests then had remedial. We had issues, hung out, and sometimes got into quarrels. Well, we're just teens. That's what we did :). Good at friendship, bad at relationship. The life between me and my lover didn't go really well. I started to cry more frequently than before. I felt that I got lazier in my studies. Despite of it, I could take that I should work harder to reach my bright future. I learnt to divide my time and my consent for my school, friends, family, lover, and myself.
April
Where's a will, there's a way. I studied a little bit harder, and my marks went few better. I should prepare for my final test on the next month. I got busier, but it delightful. I had more times to spend with my fellows. More times for school, fewer for lover. It seemed like he didn't understand with my condition. He really did made my anger explode. We had much fight and as of it I cried more often. I learnt not to love him more.
May
It was my test period. It's pretty busy and crazy time. I got crazier, but my lover didn't help at all. He broke my heart out. I thought that hadn't known him yet. I just knew that he lied often, never listened to my statements, and such a promise breaker, an egomaniac. Here, I really did felt my friends' love. I shared my story more often than before. They gave me a lot logical suggestions. I realized that too much tears I wasted for somebody who didn't understand the mean of every eye drops that fell.
June
It was half of the year. I took my report. I got some 'okay' marks and a lot 'euh'. I promised myself to do better next. About lover, I had considered from the beginning of the month that I should let everything go. So I told him that everything was over. I just couldn't hold the burdens anymore. I had no courage to face the worse possibilities that was going to happen. Here I conclude that the aim of loving is for hurting and to be hurt. Don't ever try to love somebody if you aren't ready to hurt. Yea, that's love. Well, I thought that I couldn't feel anything good after I passed that bad craps. But it was okay because I should consent for my future, really bright future.
July
I was shocked when my boy friend (He's my friend. And he's a BOY) told me that he loved me. I began to recall everything. He's the one who stayed beside when I cried for my ex-lover. He's a friend, a place I shared everything. He's a good listener who listened to my every single craps of my madness. He always had been there when I needed, and never stood too far behind to catch me when I fell. This month, I learnt that I should respect with my surroundings. There's still somebody cared, somebody hoping of other's happiness. There's still somebody kind.
August
I was no longer a senior high-schooler. This month I started my life as a super senior high-schooler. I had to study a lot. There wasn't much times to play a lot. I began to make great, unforgettable memories with my surroundings. This was the time I became a listener. I just watched what's around, listened to my fellows, and learnt from them. It was great to know what happened to your friends. And it was awesome when you could help them solving their matters.
September
My bestie got into a heart trouble. His boyfriend seemed like forced her too much. He wasn't just fallen in love. But he's fell in obsession. I tried to help her out of the case, but I did that in a wrong way. First, I learnt that solutions that worked in your case aren't always worked in others'. Second, I knew that there's no woman like weak man. Showing all of your weaknesses won't take others sympathy. It's just showing that you're incapable in doing your best for your life.
October
This whole month was about me, my friends and a boy I adore. We really tried hard to make great memories to memorize then. We realized that life's just once. Once you pass it, you won't get it back. Life's too short to spend for complaining. Build the happy bridge and just over it.
November
It was a very crazy time. Semester tests had been close enough. I found myself was trapped among people with many problem to solve immediately. There's so much I could learn. I knew that being curious in proper portion is nice. Sometimes your friends need you to ask them about her daily, lately news about their life. They want to know how far you care about them. It reminded me that life isn't just about us ourselves.
December
I got my 17 and I was thankful for I was given a lot of chances to breathe, to learn, to love, and to live. I was thankful for I live in pleasant surroundings with good friends, good family. I was thankful for had imperfect life. That made me realized that I should keep trying to reach perfection on my own way. I should keep doing my best to face the worst possibilities. I was thankful for I was born as myself, not anybody else.
And that's my 2010. I learnt, realized, watched, and heard a lot about life. It was full with joy, happiness, tears, madness, laugh and a lot crazy craps. I might not get everything I want. But I really did get everything I need. All that I need is you. Thanks for being my joyful memories, people. You'd given me delightful time. All of you taught me that life's hard. There's no guarantee that this life is easy. I promise I'll be much better on 2011. Wish we're still given a lot of chances to pass this year together.
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Happy Day
Ujian selesai. Selamat berlibur, buat saya sendiri. Dan Selamat Hari Ibu, buat Mama di seluruh dunia :)
Atas nama seluruh anak di semesta; We love you, Bunda :)